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A Funny Joke.... A Must Read....
22:21 Apr 20 2010
Times Read: 762

Recently a Marine unit captured a Taliban leader in Afghanistan. They took him to a warehouse where the gave him dice and the seargent told him throw the dice and if you get a 1,2,3,4,or 5 your head comes off. The Taliban leader says what if I roll a 6 the seargent says then you get to roll again.

Look Deep Inside
21:29 Apr 20 2010
Times Read: 768

It's time to see,

Which one flows within me.

Can you see?

Do you want to stay or flee?



Are you smart enough,

To see what flows behind my eyes.

Are you willing to look deep,

And say your good-byes.



You have released,

What I have hidden for years.

Why do you hide,

Behind your fallen tears?



You try to run,

But there is nowhere to hide.

You should have told me everything,

You should have not lied.



I once loved you,

With all my soul and heart.

And now you leave me,

With neither soul or heart.



I was once a person,

That could feel for all.

You proved to me that I can,

Once again have hatred for all.



Thank you for showing me,

That I have made a big mistake.

It is my life,

That I will forever forsake.



You wanted me to be

Just like you are.

As you can see,

I am nothing like you are.



I used to be happy,

Most of the time in my life.

Now all I want at this time,

Is to end this forsaken life!



If I have learned,

Anything from life.

It would be,

I Am Nothing to anyone in this life.

As Darkness Falls
19:06 Apr 15 2010
Times Read: 785

As darkness falls,

And as the night unfolds it blackened wings.

I stand at the edge of the cliff,

And listen as the night sings.



I look upond the world,

As if I could find happiness.

But I am beginning to realize,

I find nothing but sadness.



I wish for no more tears of hurt,

I wish for no more tears pain.

For once I my life,

I wish my dreams would not go down the drain.



Sometimes I feel my life has no purpose,

Sometimes I feel my life has no meaning.

I wish I could understand why,

Within me I let out the suffering.



I stare into the night,

With saddened eyes.

I And as a tear escapes,

I wish to say all my good-byes.

Slave To My Thirst
02:50 Apr 15 2010
Times Read: 801

I am slave to my thirst,

I am slave to the hunger.

The pains of the thirst and hunger are not strong,

But as time goes by the hunger gets stronger.



The feeling inside of me is overwhelming me,

I feel as if I cannot handle the pains anymore.

I wish and hope the hunger would go,

I can't handle much more.



Anger is growing,

Pain does not subside.

Thirst is increasing,

Now the hatred is back inside.



I feel like a puppet to the thirst,

The hunger is like a call.

I wish I could get rid of this controlling feeling by the thirst,

In time this will be my downfall.

A Vampyres Friend
05:40 Apr 12 2010
Times Read: 812

When I am down,

And when I need you.

I know you'll be there,

Just as I am for you.



When I feel like I am,

At the end of my rope.

You always tell me,

There is always hope.



When I feel like,

I have nothing to give,

You always make me,

Want to live.



And for you,

I write this.

Because without you,

I would feel like I would not be missed.

I Am Learning
05:12 Apr 12 2010
Times Read: 828

As the darkness,

Once unfolded upon me.

And the hatred,

Grew within me.



And as the madness,

Tried to take me.

I found myself,

Trying to keep control.



Everyone told me,

That everything will work out.

I wished I would have listened the first time,

Then there would not have been any doubt.

One of Those Days
03:36 Apr 12 2010
Times Read: 830

Did you ever have,

One of those days?

Where everything,

Seems to be in a daze?



Have you ever had,

One of those days too?

Where you know someone,

Just hates you?



I have had a day,

Just like that.

For some unknown reason,

They make you feel like a door mat.



Why do they hate me so badly?

I have done them no harm.

They call me a freak,

With all their simple charm.



The pain within me,

Grows so fast.

But my hatred for them,

Growing even more than the past.



All I do,

Is shy away from them.

What if I chose not too hide,

But instead fight them?



Would I become them,

Or would I become something that I hate?

A part of me wants the challenge,

But would that bring my own fate?



Time is too short,

To run and hide all the time.

If you stop and listen,

You can hear the clock's chime.



It is time,

For me to be.

What I was born,

In life to be.

This world of Darkness
03:27 Apr 12 2010
Times Read: 836

I feel all alone,

I feel useless.

I want to let go of this world,

That is full of darkness.



My heart feels,

As if it has been ripped out.

My soul has darkened,

And that is without any doubt.



As the wind blows,

And the trees sway.

I now look at my life,

In a different way.



My life is now in ruin,

And I have begun to hate myself.

I realized not everything can be fixed,

But now I am my dark self.



I have time now,

To think about all.

And now I wish for,

This World of Darkness to call.

Fade
03:23 Apr 12 2010
Times Read: 839




I was told,

That everything dies.

But I also know,

That everyone lies.



When the lies start,

The pain begins.

When the tears fall,

The heart darkens.



The sun has set,

The moon is on the rise.

In my life now,

I have to be wise.



There is,

So many promises made.

There is,

So many promises that fade.

Say Hello To The Night
03:21 Apr 12 2010
Times Read: 841

Sitting and watching,

As the world of darkness unfolds around me.

I hear the echos of the night,

And wonder what it could be.



I see the children of the night,

Have come out to play.

I sit here and watch,

With nothing to say.



As I sit within the blackness,

I hear a voice calling to me.

Am I drowning in this madness,

Or am I just being me.



There is a chill in the air,

And it is all about me now.

For the people who have shunned me,

You'll never see me again that I vow.



As the trees blow to and fro,

And the smell of rain is on the wind.

For all the things I have seen and know,

It is time for the pain of the heart to mend.

Anger
03:10 Apr 12 2010
Times Read: 843

As my blood begins to boil,

I realize it is my hatred.

As my heart races,

All I see is the color red.



I feel as if,

I have been betrayed by love.

I feel as if,

I have to watch my Love.



As my anger,

Begin to rise.

And I hear,

Nothing but the lies.



I wonder why,

She did this to me.

As I look at her,

I sometimes wish she never met me.



My revenge,

Will be sought.

I will find them,

And their lessons will be taught.

To The Wall
03:07 Apr 12 2010
Times Read: 845

When people look at me?

They can't see me.

They listen to what I say,

But no one hears me.



As the last tear falls,

And it all begins to happen.

With a flash of the blade,

Everything happens.



Sometimes I feel like,

My happiness means nothing.

Most times I feel as if,

To everyone I am nothing.



I once felt,

That time heals all.

But now I know,

My back's To The Wall.

The Scars of Life
18:16 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 875

I look at my arms,

I see the scars of pain and hopelessness.

The scars of fear and distrust,

The scars of betrayal and greediness.



My wrists are my paper,

My knife is the pen filled with pain.

My blood is the ink,

That now flows like a summer rain.



I am now wondering,

If everything was worth it.

I have lost most of what I was,

And now I have become the thing from the pit.



The pain within my heart,

Is worse than whatever I can inflict.

The soul is now dark,

And my wrists are casting out the hatred.



As the pain drips down,

Down into the dirt.

As the dark feelings leave me,

The feelings of pain and hurt.



The pains are almost gone,

I am too weak to walk.

I feel like I am falling,

And I can not talk.



As I grow numb and cold,

And as my hatred is gone.

My spirit can look,

To what comes with a new dawn.

Odin's Hall
18:11 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 877

Here in this battle,

We wander.

Through this dark land,

I stand and ponder.



With our helmets,

Smashed.

And with our swords,

Clashed.



With all my hope,

And with all my might.

I will join in,

And help this endless fight.



With all the glory,

And with all our fame.

With all our honor,

We will win this game.



With my brother Thor,

At my side.

With his hammer in the wind,

Our enemies can not hide.



Killers of men,

We are warrior's friend.

Sworn to avenged,

Our fallen brothers to the end.



With Thor and Loki,

Let the battle begin.

With our weapons in hand,

And swords in the wind.



I will die with my sword in hand,

And my shield upon my arm.

I will protect them all,

From my enemies harm.



One day soon,

I will fall.

Then they will,

Open Odin's Hall.

The Dark
17:24 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 881

As the darkness begins to settle within me,

And as my mind clouds with anger.

I slowly feel myself become,

More and more darker.



I ask myself,

How could this be?

But there is no doubt now,

I just don't care anymore about me.



The anger and rage,

May or may not be caused by the darkness within me.

But then again,

I don't care what has happened to me.



I once lived within this darkness,

I once felt safe within the dark.

Now it is time to return,

Return to the quietness of the dark.



For those of you,

That know what I am speaking about.

Stay out of the dark,

Return to the light with no doubt.

The Need
16:51 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 884

As I sit here,

The need grows within.

Everyone has there own needs,

And I am the same within.



Alone in the dark,

I sit crying.

I feel the darkness,

Like it is smiling.



In the still of the night,

I sit here all alone.

My fates are weaving,

With all cards shown.



I have tried to pretend,

That I don't care.

But in the dark and dreams,

I would never dare.



The dark,

Holds me in a dark embrace.

But I am held,

In your loving embrace.



I don't want to live inside,

Inside the dark embrace.

I want to be with you,

And with time I am in the race.

Revive
16:43 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 885

The words of Love,

Have been so confused.

The ways of Love,

Have all been very abused.



Revive the Passion,

Revive the Lust.

Revive the Love,

Revive the feeling was once thought lost.



Lay to rest,

All my fears.

Lay to rest,

All my wasted tears.



I know you've heard it,

A thousand times before.

So I don't say it,

To you anymore.



I must turn around,

And face myself.

I must once again,

Revive myself.

No Fear Of The Darkness
16:16 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 887

As I enter the darkness,

From out of the light.

I am at the main point,

And I can't fight.



I stand with the shadows,

And remember them as allies.

I hide from all,

And all their lies.



Within my shell of darkness,

To me there is no way out.

In this world of hatred,

Everything I see is full of doubt.



Every time I try emerge,

From this darkness.

I find myself,

Fall back into this bleakness.



As there is no trust,

For others around me.

I struggle to find,

What can not be.



I was full of misery,

And my anger raged.

But with No Fear of the Darkness,

I could not keep it caged.

Open Your Heart
15:56 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 889

As time goes by,

I fall in love with you.

As the days pass,

I yearn to be with you.



I want us to be happy,

And you to overcome your fears.

I want you to love me,

Without any tears.



You are all I have,

You are the reason in the morning I wake.

As you can see this it true Love,

And this I won't forsake.

My Paper
15:30 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 890

My flesh is my paper,

My blood is my ink.

My blade is my pen,

And with steady hand I write in red ink.



As the ink begins to cover the paper,

Words of pain come to the surface.

As the words cover my arms,

A pale and dark view come over my face.



My vision is blurry,

And I am cold.

My ink is all over my paper,

And I feel like it's time to fold.



As my hand begins to shake,

From all the writing I do.

I am within the darkness,

And with memories of you.

My Fall
15:25 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 891

As my time is coming to an end,

And my heart is breaking.

My mind is ripping itself to pieces,

And my Worthless soul is shattering.



I have lost,

My one true love.

There is hatred in her heart for me,

And I am no longer her true love.



I am shaking,

With pain and sorrow.

I need to find a way to mend my heart,

Or there will be no tomorrow.



I am losing everything,

That I hold dear to me.

I feel I have come along way,

But now I am wondering if it should be.



There is a war,

Going on inside my heart and mind.

It is a war about my life,

And what I might find.



I love a challenge,

And I know life can be hard.

But sometimes,

People grow tired.



We all grow tired of life,

Some fight to the very end,

But my heart and soul don't want to mend.



I feel as if I have disappointed everyone,

That is around me.

As I think about my love,

I wish we can be.



I wonder sometimes,

What would happen if I revert back into the darkness.

Would life be better for everyone around,

Or would I be consumed by the bleakness.



I know I have made the wrong choices in life,

But some things can be fixed.

Some things will never be right,

And my thoughts and emotions are mixed.



The darkness has been,

A place of safety.

But since I have lost her now,

I can not call the darkness safety.



As the sun sets,

And as the moon rises.

I too wish I could rise from the darkness,

But all there is in me are the cries.

Engulfed Yet Once Again
15:22 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 893

The darkness has engulfed me,

My very being yet once again.

For some unknown reason I chose to let go,

And fall back into the darkness again.



No one hears my silent cries,

No one hears my silent screams.

Here I sit and wait for someone,

Someone to lead me out of these darken dreams.



I know this place all to well,

I chose to exist in this darken hell.

Within the safety of the darkness,

I now want to live outside of this hell.



For some I have become a burden,

For others I have become a scapegoat.

Now I am here,

Up the same old river with no boat.



I will wait until that someone comes,

Or until my time runs out.

I hear the clock ticking fast,

And it continues to tick faster and fades out.



I hear a voice in the darkness,

A voice beckoning for me to follow.

I do not move or breathe,

The voice sounds distant and hollow.



Am I doomed to live here until the end?

I am frozen here with my fears.

I know I must follow,

Now here come the tears.

Angels of Darkness
15:19 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 894

Angels of Darkness,

Children of the night.

Have we been overcome with evil,

Or are we just hiding from the light.



We chase the shadows throught the night,

Bodies writhe by candles light.

Aglow with the light of the fireflies,

I catch a glimpse of them in the nightime light.



Visions of the darkness calling my name,

Caught in the cold stare and struggling in vain.

In the haze of the mist and the chill of the frost,

I look around and see that we are of the lost.



As a tear escapes from my eyes,

And as sadness inside me forever growing.

I look to the night to hold me and keep me safe,

And I know my heart will handle the pains of lies.



The night is all around us,

And we are here to have fun.

So now come to me the Children of the Night,

Be strong and let's dance the last dance of the Night.

The Candle
15:10 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 895

I am the candle,

That everyone wants around.

When someone need light,

They know where I can be found.



As my flame of life,

Burns down and away.

My life becomes,

Shorter by the day.



I just wonder now,

What will happen to me?

When my usefulness is no more,

Will I be free?

Two
15:05 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 897

Like the nighttime,

Is from the day.

You seem to be,

So far away.



As the wind carries,

The song of my heart.

And as the breezes carry,

Your voice like a dart.



And the stars,

Will shine very bright.

When you come to me,

For one last dance tonight.



I see and feel,

You in my dreams.

Is it as real,

As it all seems?



Almost close enough,

For me to touch your soul.

But to distant for us as a couple,

To be whole.



Hear my thoughts,

Echo in your mind.

Look inside and see,

If it's me you find.



Gaze into my eyes,

And you will see.

You will find,

Yourself in me.



Are you strong enough,

To stand by me?

Are you willing enough,

To love me?



Someday my love,

We will face life together.

Our wishes and dreams,

We be ours forever.



Don't ever leave me,

Unless your love for me dies.

If it does die,

Just don't tell me lies.



If the unthinkable,

Should ever come true,

Just remember this,

That I still Love You.

My Wish
14:52 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 900

I wish I could be,

A butterfly.

Then I would fly and fly,

Until it is my time to die.



I want to be,

The butterfly.

No one would,

Suspect the butterfly.



But instead,

I am me.

And this is,

All I will be.

If I Let You In....
05:01 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 908

If I let you in,

Without a word of doubt.

Will you promise me,

That you will not push me out.



The day we met,

I started to fall.

In my mind there was no time,

But I had to make the call.



You are my soul,

You are my very heart.

You are the breath I breathe,

And you are what makes my day start.



I tried to hide,

I thought I could outrun.

I started thinking,

This is going to be fun.



I under estimated,

Your power of love for me.

But I know within my heart,

It is now all about 'We'.



After all has been done,

And after all has been said.

I can't get the words,

Just right out of my head.



For the most beautiful woman in the world.



Jessica, Do you remember when I wrote this for you on 10/Mar/10 ???

It's Too Late
04:51 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 909

Without warning,

You left me out in the rain.

I still don't know what went so very wrong,

All I have now is pain.



I guess,

You wanted to hurt me.

As you can see,

You have succeeded in hurting me.



Was everything we had,

Just a joke or a game?

I know who fault this is,

I know who to blame.



I must have,

Been dreaming!

I really thought,

Everything had meaning!



I am now filled with pain,

And tears of sorrow.

There is not much left of me,

And I wish for no tomorrow.



My wishes and dreams,

Are all now shattering.

Only thing left for me,

Is the suffering.



Since I am me,

I should be use to the pain.

Everything is a lose,

And nothing to gain.

The Sea
04:31 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 911

I feel as if I am drowning,

In a sea of hopelessness.

I feel like I am becoming,

Like a soul that is lifeless.



No one to stop me,

From drowning.

No one to stop me,

From falling.



I fell so,

Numb and cold.

My mind is clouded,

And there is nothing to hold.



As I,

Twist, turn and fall.

I hear the darkness,

And for me it calls.



As I look up,

I see what was my life.

As I fall down into the dark,

I now see my new life.



As I lay here,

In the bleakness of the dark.

I realize,

I will leave here my mark.



Forever I stay,

In this world of decay.

Forever in this state,

Of dismay.



The darkness,

Surrounds my very being.

There is no way out,

There now is for me Nothing.

My Life
04:19 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 914




Racing with death,

My life is now a mess.

As time grows shorter,

I am feeling like I am less.



As the darkness engulfs my soul,

And I know there is no doubt.

As I become the darkness,

There will be no way out.



As I sit here,

Banging my head against the wall.

It seems to me,

That no one cares at all.



As pain and hate,

Flash through my mind.

I wish love and peace,

Is what I could find.



When everything is said and done,

And when they start with the lies.

It is time for me,

To say my Good-Byes.

Within Myself
04:16 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 915

Here I sit,

And watch my world come crumbling down.

I cry for help,

But no one comes around.



Silently screaming within myself,

As I bang my head against the wall

It seems to me,

That no one cares for me at all.



As love and peace,

Go flashing through my soul and mind.

Pain and hatred,

Is all they find.



Everything is cloudy,

Nothing is clear.

When I speak,

Nobody hears!



The clock is ticking,

But nothing seems to be changed.

Problems never solved,

Just rearranged.



I can not change,

What I am.

I was born me,

And that is what I am.



When I think about,

All the times that I have had.

So few that were good,

And so many that were bad.



Sometimes I think to myself,

Is this life or am I dead?

Sometimes I am caught up in my emotions,

And I can not get ahead.



So many try,

But no one understands me.

So many listen,

But no one hears me.

Dark World
04:08 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 920

As this darkened world,

Closes in on me.

And as my bruised and battered soul,

Begins to decay within me.



I wait,

For the pale rider.

I listen upon the wind,

For the dark horse and rider.



As the sun,

Dips down slowly.

And as the night unfolds,

It's blackened wings rapidly.



I lay here,

Here in waiting.

I lay here,

Here in listening.



There is nothing,

Nothing left for me.

I have lost,

What was in me.



As I lay here and wait,

I hear the clock tick.

As I listen,

The clock ticks and ticks.



There is no time left,

No time for me.

I wish for peace,

But I am left with the soul of the lonely.

Alone
04:04 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 921

As I walk in the dark of the shadows,

And from town to town.

I watch everyone,

And I know that all dreams seem to go down.



As the thunder rolls on,

And as the skies grow darker.

The winds continue to blow,

And the rains hit me harder and harder.



As the moon hides out of sight,

And as I walk alone.

And as I walk into the night,

I realize I'm destined to be alone.



My heart grows cold,

From the loss of my true love.

And I know within my heart,

I won't ever find someone to call my love.



As the streams and rivers freeze,

My heart begins to as well.

And as the fall of the tears,

It's the start of my hell.



As I look around me,

And see the snow.

I realize that true happiness,

Is something I will never know

My Misery
04:00 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 922

There is no love for me,

There is only my hate.

I tried my best,

And I think it's too late.



I am becoming so withdrawn,

And I am feeling numb.

As I sit here and watch,

I see my life coming all undone.



I am filled with pain,

And sorrow.

I have a bruised and darken soul,

I see no tomorrow.



Spare me from a life,

A life full of Misery.

And spare from this life,

With no destiny.



I once cared,

About everything.

Now I care,

About nothing.



I feel like,

I am dying inside.

I have lost the trust from within,

And now I want to hide.



I now welcome death,

With open arms.

I wait for death,

With it's simple charm.



I have become,

What they detest.

Now I wait,

For a much needed rest.



I am forever.

In the shadows of disgrace

I am me,

And happiness is what I chase.



As I clench my fists,

And realize.

My world is near,

It's own demise.

Betrayal
02:10 Apr 10 2010
Times Read: 923

For the ones I thought I trusted,

There is only the Betrayal you left with me.

For the one I truly loved,

There is now what will not be.



I thought I could

Love once again!

But all there is now

Is the tears rolling off my chin.



You brought me out of a world of self hate,

And my world of darkness.

And for what?

For this new world of lonesomeness.



All I wanted was Love...

I thought I found her this time.

All I wanted was to find comfort,

You made it feel like Love is a crime.



How could I not see,

Her blackness of sin?

I am numb to her touch,

As the poisoned words seep in.



Every single moment

I spend here

Is just another day

Within my heart that I will always FEAR.



Every night my dreams

Were tender and true...

But now my only thoughts

Are what Should have been of you.

Broken
10:28 Apr 08 2010
Times Read: 935

The heart and trust are now broken,

The mind and soul are now hurting.

As this vampyre looks into the night,

I realize I have made a mistake for which I will always be paying.



As the weather get colder,

And the trees are changing color in their leaves.

I wonder if I will ever be happy,

But for now if wonder if Life will be always a tease.



As I stand at the edge of a cliff,

And as the darkness desends upon me and my cries.

I still wonder why life played yet another game,

But I wonder why I must try.



As my dreams and wished are now being crushed,

And the desire to move on has not yet come.

As time seems to slow down,

I feel so very stupid and dumb.



The desire to cut is here,

But I realize I want to cut me.

I am a vampyre,

And I know that I will always be shuned.

My Pen
09:34 Apr 08 2010
Times Read: 937

The blade is my pen,

For me to carve out the words of pain.

My skin is the paper for the words of pain,

And the blood that flows down my arm like a bitter rain.



As I watch the droplets of hurt,

And as I feel my head get lighter and lighter.

Slowly as the droplets hit the ground,

My face seems to turn whiter and whiter.



My heart truly desires for the end to come,

And I have seen the hatred behind my vampiric eyes.

I tried to cover up all my hatred and sorrow,

That was caused by people spreading lies.



I tried to appear to be happy,

Now I sit here with nothing to say and all alone.

And as I sit here wishing I could have done better,

Now there is so much that will go unsaid and undone.